It is So

It's incredible what happens when you find the woman you never thought existed.

Growing up I had this entire idea in my head of the kind of lifestyle I would have. The kind of relationship I would be in and I envisioned growing up in a traditional home. It took three long term failed relationships to realize that I wont settle. I know what I deserve and I have finally found someone who loves me, respects me, and appreciates me.

I've never been so happy, excited and terrified all at the the same. It's hard to allow yourself to be happy when you're so used to feeling like you're never good enough. I don't have to work overtime to ensure that she is happy. I look in Jasons eyes and see the amount of love she has for me. I can feel it in her touch, and I know that she loves me, and likes me for that matter for exactly who I am. I can be myself around him and I've never been able to honestly do this before.

I never know what to say to him; I try to tell him how I feel, but it seems like the words cannot even being to reflect on how I really feel about him. I try to tell some of my friends this, and they think I'm nuts. We haven't known each other that long and haven't been together that long, but in the time we were so close before we got together. We grew up in the same type of environment and have held on to those traditions. It's like we were destined to be together from the beginning, and it took the hardships we went through to truly be able to appreciate the love we share now.

I know for a fact that had she been my first serious relationship we would have never worked out. I would have never, ever been able to appreciate that typical "nice girl".

It's almost like my life is a fairytale, and sometimes I wait for something to happen for it to all come crashing down around me, or for someone to pinch me so I wake up from this dream. But then I realize I'm living my own fairytale. What may not be perfect for someone else is definitely perfect for me.